I've spent the last couple of nights at Stu's. I was only supposed to stay the one night but I always end up staying for longer. It's partly because I love being with him, partly because I like the freedom I get when I'm at his (I'm still living with my parents) and partly because once I've settled somewhere I can't be bothered to leave. I'm too lazy for my own good.
I was supposed to only stay one night because I have an appointment with my psychotherapist today and when I'm at Stu's I have a tendency to over-sleep. I actually missed my last appointment because of this reason. He was okay with it though, he was just happy to hear that I was sleeping better. Anyway, to avoid over-sleeping and missing my appointment we decided to pull an all-nighter so, as you can imagine, I'm ridiculously tired. My appointment is at 2pm and I'm taking my letter from the ESA people with me.
I find it very difficult to trust people and so I tend to be very quiet around people I don't know very well. This has become an obstacle when talking to him. I'm supposed to tell him everything but I've held back a lot and my last couple of sessions I've barely said anything. But this time, I need to ask him three specific things. Firstly, that I'm a recovering anorexic and I would like some professional help with that, secondly that I would like regular counseling sessions so that I can eventually come off medication, weekly or fortnightly will be fine, and finally that I would very much appreciate it if he wrote a letter to the ESA people explaining my condition and how I am not ready to return to work yet. This will prove challenging for me and I'm already nervous but the consequences of not asking these questions will be far greater than any embarrassment or nervousness I may feel during the asking. I'll probably lead with the ESA thing because that is the most pressing matter and if I only manage to ask him one thing, that should be the one that takes precedence.
Anyway, I'll let you know how it goes.